Insecurity is an excruciating feeling
A rug pulled from under, an electric current through the veins
Fear, Anger, Jealousy, Agitation, Pressure…
A flood of self criticism and loathing.
I lived my life wanting to get rid of it
Working hard on developing confidence and ease.
Being insecure is tough,
It can cause a lot of pain and destruction
It’s definitely not sexy…
Can, it be?
I have accomplished some of my best achievements
When I felt insecure and yet motivated to grow
The fact of being insecure propelled me.
One of the strongest impulses is the will to Live. To survive.
Insecurity is the process which harnesses that will.
I have found that in most cases
It is never the content, the feeling, the problem which are important.
But how I am in relation to them.
That’s all that matters.
When I embrace insecurity as tremendous fuel for accomplishing my ambitions.
When I hold it with acceptance, understanding and Love.
When I see it as a blessing…
It is a Gift.
Still, I wish it felt different...